love

9:56 AM - Love
I guess that everything happens for a reason. And its not always easy to remember or accept. Like why when you need someone there, no one is at all. Or why some die so young.. or why when you want something so bad and it just seems so far out of reach. Why it seems like everyday you are constantly disappointed and let down.
So don't put faith in others and trust is earned. But what next? Where do you go from there? All you have left is to love one another but what an empty love.. without trust? or faith?
No I dont wnat to get my heart broken. No I dont want to hurt you. But with all my might, I try to push myself to love. To trust. To have faith in the unknown.
Oh and all theyre promises- they'll kiss your worries away. They'll brush your hair back and hold you tight- so that you may feel safe.. for maybe just that night. but it doesnt last for long. You'll soon see they're true intentions and they're never what you really wanted. But what, do you let this safety go? Do you let go of the hand that holds yours when you have no where else to go?
If you are strong you walk away. And that's all you'll ever do. They all say they dont deserve you and in the end you find they're right. But I wont lose hope that there is this love that I will feel honored that they even glanced at me twice.
The love that is compassionate and kind to all others, even strangers. Who listens well and takes good care of all the ones he loves. Who isnt greedy or selfish and doesnt want control of everything. Someone who will make me laugh til my side splits and yet still holds me when I cry. A patient man who sees past my faults and insecurities and right into the girl that some may love.
I know that this exsists. And I am not spending my waking seconds searching above and beyond for him. I am only hoping and praying that he isnt that far away. And that I may not waste my time on the imposters who cross my path just to temper the lonely nights.