Moving on

Sitting here... I'm remanising.. Stricken by a sudden void. Hit on the head with a memory that I have been fighting to block out.

"I'm really not even sad about it."
"No, I swear. I'm really ok" ...I'll brag.

But then I saw that, and this and that.
Bam.
3 solid stabs right to the heart.

**How is this punishment feeling?
This cruel path of mistrust and confusion.
It's living.
It's learning.
It's not being afraid and pursuing all that worth anything.**